Monday, October 24, 2011

Ovulation Confirmed; Waiting to Test

I just got out of the shower and I really should finish up the homework I'm working on, but instead I decided I wanted to write an overdue blog entry.  I'm a naughty student I suppose.

I peed on a stick for a whole week waiting to get a positive ovulation test. Monday the 17th, I finally got a positive test in the evening.   Sire and I had had sex that morning so I felt awesome about the intercourse timing for ovulation.   Friday, Saturday, and Monday I had coworkers that didn't even know that I am trying to conceive ask me if I was pregnant.   I'm hoping my coworkers are having some sort of collective premonition of this cycle being the one.

Today I'm Seven days past ovulation and I don't know how I'm going to make it through this next week waiting to test.   My temperatures are high the last few days.  I'm hoping that's a good sign.  I've been lighting a candle, burning rose incense and praying to Aphrodite everyday.   I'm sort of a bad Pagan in that when I pray to a God it's really informal, but I'll talk about that another day.

Yesterday I had a sort of fail.  My daughter had a friend over expectantly.  After her friend's mom dropped her off I went up to the bathroom and happened to the look in the mirror and see the shirt I was wearing.  My Eden Fantasys Shirt that says "I like things that go Vroom."  It's my favorite shirt to sleep in because it is just so comfortable.  (You can get it as a free gift right now with your purchase)  Hopefully her mom either didn't read the shirt or didn't get the refference.  She doesn't come off as the type that would have been comfortable with that.  

Then to make matters worse, the first thing my daughter does is bring her friend into my bedroom and pick up an empty sex toy box that some how fell out of the closet.   I was having a minor panic attack when I realized I had sex toys laying out all over my room (above the kids eye level) and quickly ushered them out and shut the door.  I think no one ever had an idea what was going on other than me but I think I learned a lesson all the same.   Sire keeps telling me one of these days someone is going to come over and find a vibrator on the bathroom sink.   He's probably right.

Tuesday, October 4, 2011

Hey Life! Stop so I can catch up!

Wow I just read a post from September and realized that is still exactly where I am.  When I get caught up on one thing another gets behind.  Then when I take a break for a day everything gets behind again.  So yeah that's where I am.   I am so worried Eden Fantasy's and Digital Playground thinks I'm flaking on them but I'm totally not.  My work hours are variable and on call so I'm just so exhausted.  I'm so busy I'm not even getting my homework done. Plus I don't want to take pictures or videos in my house while it's trashed.

I am so over life right now; I just want to take a break from everything for a while.

As you may know if you've been reading my blog and twitter, I am trying to get pregnant and I was really starting to get hopeful even though I had negative tests.  My temperatures were staying high so I thought maybe I ovulated later than my chart was showing and that was why I was getting negative tests.  I had an OB appointment today for a pap smear and knew that they could do a pregnancy test for me while I was there.  Well an hour before my appointment I started my period.  I was so emotional at work I just about lost my cool with a stupid calculator that I couldn't get to work.   I even skipped my class tonight.   On the plus side the midwife I saw the OB's office finally made a suggestion for my ovarian cysts other than birth control.   She told me there was nothing else Western Medicine could do for me but recommended Chinese medicine, specifically acupuncture.  She told me I if I told them I have ovarian cysts and I'm trying to get pregnant they could probably treat me to help with both things!

I did get this neat new toy in the mail recently.   I got this and a butt plug because I've been wanting to try some anal play.  Still not sure how I feel about it.  The Swirly Deuce is totally beautiful and it has a third prong which can be used alone for thrusting and I love it.   Unfortunately the toy doesn't like up well enough for me for the double penetration to be comfortable.  I am glad I got it though because now I know that I absolutely love glass and need some more.

I'm going to bed now.  Goodnight.